Friday, October 8, 2010

Night and Day

It was a perfect day until I received a call from a man with a hoarse voice. We had a short conversation, yet, it brought a large impact to me. I let go of her beautiful hand and rushed to Royal Casino instantly.

I drove my car so fast, my nerves were stunned by the words of the man. The adrenaline released into my bloodstream made my heart pump even faster, I was in fear. The fear expanded so fast until I couldn't even take a moment to give myself an injection-alprazolam. My hands were full of sweat as they held the steering firmly.My mind kept wandering to find the answer, I really did not know what to do, how could Texo be caught cheating during gambling...

When I rushed into the casino, a man dressed in black led to me to a cellar at the lower ground. I was so afraid as I couldn't imagine how terribly Texo had been tortured. When the door was slammed open, I saw Texo with three of his fingers cut off. I covered my mouth spontaneously as I saw the blood flowing out of his hands.

'Tex, what happened? What had they done?' I asked with full anxiety.

'Run...' Texo said lifelessly, his mouth couldn't even move as he spoke.

Meanwhile, three huge men walked into the cellar from the dark. I thought that they came for money, but no, they were not. They came for something else, something far more precious, a thing in which Texo and I had put our life once. It cannot be kept physically, and the effort of one man is insufficient to carry it completely. It is nothing more, but a, mathematics formula. It was created based on the knowledge of probability, a way to predict the outcome. Casino will never fall because too many calculations had been made before it is built. The probability of winning in casino isn't 50/50, because there are far more possible outcomes then win and lose, so the appropriate answer should be zero. However, nothing in the world could be perfect, so Texo and I had found the flaw of this calculation. We created number of formulae and combined all of them together in a systematic way, so they became a system. Just by knowing the name of this system, the three man's intention is clear. Texo and I named it as 'Black Jack System'. Black Jack, an ace and a king, dominates all other cards in a deck. There are too many complexities within this system, therefore it was impossible for one man to have it all in the head. And this is why, Texo wasn't killed by them, so far. Although this formula is so useful and once did realise our dream, I was willing to give it up for Texo. He is my only friend. The moment I told the three men another half of the formula, Texo stopped me immediately. He did something terribly wrong. As a consequence, one of the three men pour a bottle of sulphuric acid on the back of Texo's hands. 'Pss!', as the acid reacted with the skin of his hand, his skin dissolved quickly until the blood flowed out of his hand directly. The mixture of the blood and the acid turned the floor red and kept flowing until it reached and burned the bottom part of my shoe.I did not allow another thought to flow into my mind, I told the three men every detail of the formula. After that, the man pour some alkali upon Texo's hands to neutralize the acid. I quickly rushed towards Texo to help him. I held him by his arm and walked out with him slowly.

As we walked pass the door, I felt the barrel of a gun being pressed against the back of my head. As I turned back, I saw the man shaking his head.

'Only one of you can get out of here,' the man said.

I looked at Texo who had fainted because of the pain inflicted on him. I took a little moment to rest my mind. Now, I realized that my alprazolam was in my pocket. I took it out and injected it into my body. After that, I took in a deep breath, as if trying to inhale all the peace around and then breathe out slowly, as if allowing the fear and anxiety to leave.

'I know you are still conscious, you just can't open your eyes. When you wake up, please help me tell her that I didn't love her before,' I whispered to Texo by his ear.

'Can I have a choice of the way I die?' I turned to the three men and asked. They nodded, and I was so glad.

I remembered that one day, when I was 15 years old, she told me that our brain can actually function incredibly fast. Our memory can actually last forever. You don't remember it doesn't mean that it is gone, you just can't find it. Study has been made, it proved that memory can be stored at everywhere within our body. No matter how greatly the electric shock is applied to the brain, the memory stored is never possible to be eliminated entirely from our body.

'So... How to activate all these memories?' I asked.

'When you realise, you are dying,' she said.

So I took the last bird-eye-view over the town I lived, I enjoyed the air around me, the oxygen was rich. When the moment came, I dropped my cigarette and jumped down from the highest building in my town. Within a second, everything happened in my life flashed in my mind.I saw my father torturing me when I was young, he burned me with his cigarette when I was sleeping. He beat me up every time he got upset. Mum was gone, that night, at which she decided to leave, she hugged me tightly, until I fell asleep. The morning of the next day, I was all alone in the parlour. After that, I saw a coward hiding himself in the dark, didn't dare to walk through the crowd or talk to people. His past was casted with darkness by his father, therefore he began to take alprazolam to subside his fear. Later, I saw the first time I met Texo in Oxford University. And then, I saw myself holding a certificate and many people taking photos of me. At last, I saw myself lying on the field of purple roses, holding her warm hand, and looking at the sky.
After that, I felt no more.

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